new photos of Angelika
You can see the rest of the photos on her blog ( www.angeldans.blogg.no )
Poems............
....The Geek asked me if I could kindly post all the poems I can find and aren't too embarrassed to post here... SO HERE YOU GO D:<
Loss
The nightmares in my heart crawl deeper, ravaging my flesh.
My soul screams in agony, but no sound escapes my lips.
The wounds in my conscience scream in deep distress
and the pain in my head tears me apart, and rips.
My bones shall elicit a cry of help, lest the fire is tame.
No knight in armour on a white horse will me rescue.
Alas, it appears, I shall for once lose this game.
And the loss shall terrify my blood through and through.
Silent Balcony
My hollow mind searches for the light,
the light that can replace the agony.
Images flash in my mind, in fright
I step out on the silent balcony.
I stand there, looking down below.
Thinking "I can jump and end it all.
One movement, and I will fly like a crow
...or have my wings clipped, and fall."
The Feather
She sits on her terrace high above the street
Watching people pass underneath.
She thinks of all that went so wrong
And she slowly learns how to breathe.
She dreams of a world where only good exists
And as she dreams this, she cries.
She leans out on the terrace, looking over the edge,
She jumps. She jumps. And she flies.
Flames
My heart caught fire, and will never burn dry,
My love is eternal, pierced with a dart.
And as I gaze upwards, to the searing sky,
The moon takes the shape of a heart.
Cursed
"There lies a curse upon your bones"
She listens as the night wind moans
No coherent words doth fill the air
"Oh fair maiden, know no fear
For a place in hell I shall spare"
She lifts her hand all sore and so
Upon her knuckles she doth bestow
A simple glance, so she may see
Her blood in her veins flow free
"Is this the curse that lies on me?"
Her blood in a puddle at her feet
She gazes up, and her eyes meet
Two other ones so cold and queer
She can't in her own pair believe
She stares in silence, no, in fear
And her body falls to floor
Death grips her neck with fingers sore
She releases a wordless cry
One last gaze upon the sky
And there forever may she lie
Wierd love poem thingy without a title (because the title Untitled is already taken....)
If I could give you the moon it still wouldn't be enough
If I could give you the stars on a silver platter
I'd give you the sun and the rain and the clouds
I'd give you my all. Nothing would matter
I feel a burning light radiating deep within me
A glowing ball of feelings and heat
I won't let it go, but grasp it 'till the end
Pretend it's your tender heart so sweet
My entire being is chained to yours by fate
And never shall that, my dear, change
Never shall anyone tear us apart
Until death steals me from your range
Silence
Silence, all around
Nothing to be found
The more I think, the more I ponder
It becomes clear
I shouldn't wonder
Solitude, somewhere near
Hiding out of fear
I should not repent, I should not regret
But send silent thanks
To all love I've met
Maturity, not to be seen
Childish, living a dream
But can I help it? But can I end it?
Do I so want to?
Or will I mend it?
Eternity
Six letters, full of comfort and hurt.
Six letters, and only that.
Full of everything,
Full of nothing,
Tall as a mountain, yet completely flat.
B ? For the last breath I draw
R ? For the reason I hurt
O ? For ogre, the monster I've become
K ? For the key to my heart I lost
E ? For ever
N ? For never
海 (Umi)
In a sea of craving and wanting,
I swim, insatiable and lost.
In a sea of salt water from tears
Around and around I'm tossed
In a whirlpool of forgotten promises,
The light used to shine upon.
What amazes me is that even now
Still now, my feelings aren't gone.
Mirror
You think it's easy.
You think it's easy to hurt you and move on.
You think I'm heartless.
Cold.
I'm not.
Really.
Do you know how much it hurts me?
Do you know how broken I feel?
When you worry about me?
When I'm the one who's in pain, and you're the one who's sad?
When you shout at me.
When you yell at me.
For seconds.
Minutes.
Hours.
And I know you're just mad because you care.
Because you love me.
Do you think it's easy?
To know I hurt you?
And just move on?
It's not.
Because as much as you hurt when I cry.
I hurt when you cry.
And when you cry because of me.
The pain doubles.
So don't ever tell me.
I'm inconsiderate.
Cold.
Heartless.
Because it's so much easier to have you yell at me for breaking your vase
than breaking your heart.
Irony
I can taste my heart on my lips.
Cold, bitter, sharp.
Like edges of a mirror.
On my tongue.
Swirling around.
When did my heart end up in my mouth?
Oh right.
I puked out all my insides.
But my love for you was too big to fit through my mouth.
Ironic how the one thing that kills me everyday
Is the one thing I can't get out.
So I'll end up being choked by it.
And some random by-passer
Will find a corpse
Of an alien
With no guts
Who dreamt of a love
That ended up killing her.
Volcano
Ash falls like snow, covering the hills
The hills of murderous doom
Ash from the volcano, falling softly
Over the night - time gloom
Game
I want to hurt you, I want to break you.
You who hurt me so much.
Call me selfish,
But I can't bear to see you happy.
After all you did, after all you said.
I just want to tear you apart.
Let's play a game.
I'll try my best to ruin your life,
You'll pretend you don't care.
We'll see how far we can go before one of us breaks.
I Can Never Say Goodbye
Missing those times you would laugh and smile.
I hug my pillow and cry.
Missing your face that would light up my day.
I can never say goodbye.
I wish I could walk away from you.
From the memories hurting still.
I wish I could turn my back and run.
Escape of my own free will.
Why love someone who hurts me so?
I ask myself every day.
Without understanding, I crave for your touch
causing myself dismay.
If only I had the strength to stop,
To love someone else instead.
But my heart won't change, I love you,
So my tears will drench my bed.
Endless
The sky is blue as ever, but I know its technique.
It tries to deceive me with false belief.
What truth lies in existence lies above it.
And under it lies, too, the heart of my beloved.
My throat is sore from screams of pain.
Elicited in moments full of disdain.
Why is there love in this unforgiving life?
When all that is good is taken in strife.
Belief
I wish I could believe the words people say to me.
I wish I could trust those I hold dear.
I wish I could see what's right in front of me.
I wish I could be grateful of what I have before it's gone.
I tell myself to do all of this everyday.
But I don't even believe myself.
Why is it that the only one who can't see my beauty is me?
A Thousand Pieces
Broken to a thousand pieces,
I will cry forevermore.
Then one night when sleep can't reach me,
Suffering knocks on my door.
I grab a knife there on the table,
Slice, slice, slice, the blade cuts through
All my memories and sorrow
'Till my dreams and hopes come true.
Cut up in a thousand pieces,
I shall now cry nevermore.
One last tear falls down the cheek of
My corpse lying on the floor.
Speaker
Once a mouse, but now a man
In the war he makes his stand
Fighting for his freedom, he
shouts out ?Give me liberty!?
Chains of Love
I fell in love on a summer's day
With you, my beloved dear.
You told me you would always stay
But now you're no longer here.
You locked me in a cage and threw
The key far out at sea.
And then there was control-freak you
And robbed-of-freedom me.
How could I ever fall in love
With a selfish monster like you?
I wanted to be free like a dove
But I knew not what to do.
And so I came to loathe you, my dear
And I came to loathe myself.
Because, though I stayed in your heart right here
You stored me away on a shelf.
''It's not that I'm afraid to die...''
...I just...
... don't want to be there when it happens.''
-Woody Allen
What makes me smile
My new necklace :3
Photo: Angelika
Hello <3
Today I went to Sweden with my friend Angelika (-> www.angeldans.blogg.no <-) :)
And we took some pictures when we came home:)
Her hair is amazing!!
HAPPY BIRTDAY, NORWAY! :) <3
Happy birthday!
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What makes me smile?
Ellies smile ^^, Missed you today :(
Today I saw...
... a scene girl on the bus station!!! XDXD
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It made me smile!
